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Anjali sat down next to the little star shaped fish pond in her yard. A goldfish chased another under a little cave like structure she'd made with pebbles. The sun was setting, it wouldn't be long before it turned dark and then again another day... days were passing fast, but so emptily. Apart from her college and house work she hadn't much to do. She'd set up her canvas to paint but she was never in the mood and ended up packing it all up and putting it back.

She thought back to see how futile everything she'd done in the past was... and how nothing bore results that made her proud to be herself.. and everything looked like a mistake.. and people.. she'd never understood them. She thought she did, only to be proven wrong every time.

And here she was, where were her friends? she had none she realized. But that didn't make her cry.. She did feel alone.. but not depressingly alone.
It was like she'd created a world of her own. And she was heartless... no, not cruel.. just heartless... like emotionless.. or she'd become like that through time...

She used to like reading till she but then now that there were house chores all the time, she couldn't involve herself in a book as religiously as she used to..

She sighed and stood up.. the fish seemed to do fine.. they didn't have to think or toil.. she fed tehm and cleaned the pond when it needed to be cleaned... they just had to swim around and look beautiful and act tender.

Fetching for the hose to water the plants before night set in, Anjali's thoughts wandered yet again.. Yes she had forgotten him.. and he had forgotten her.. but what she couldn't forget was the child that was no more..
But then again.. had she forgotten him? She had definitely stopped loving him... she loved the old him, the one who used to be with her.. she hated the one who was engaged to that girl.
But that girl knew nothing.. but every time she looked at the mirror.. she thought of the child.. She never thought of him such a coward.. and God knew she wanted to keep it.. but how would she answer others? and it wasn't just about her.. it was about three families...

But then all the time he made her known of his love.. had he been making it up... she couldn't believe it.. no.. he was the  best but then why did he go? Why couldn't he own up for a mistake he made? why did he leave her in the middle of nowhere with no one to help.. and no place to go.. she knew why she'd turned heartless.. she wanted that child back. She knew she'd made the biggest mistake by giving it up...