After a few days..

Hmph! Yea i couldn't write for a few days... why? just didn't feel like it. Yes i had things i wanted to write about but couldn't get myself to login and write.

I've figured

I have changed, I feel so.

The last one year has caused me to change... In good ways and in bad ways, but I'm hoping its all for the good by the end of everything. But one among a few things I'm not enjoying about myself anymore is the fact that I'm finding it hard to trust anyone at all. I'm almost being indifferent to everything and everyone..

No I'm not judgmental or even prejudiced... i just have no opinion anymore of a lot of people. In fact I'm finding it hard to come to conclusions about anyone. I figured its wrong to presume oneself to be good at figuring out other people. That isn't true... I don't think anyone can figure out anyone.. Human reactions are subject to circumstances and emotions and opinions. No one factor works alone, and it's highly dangerous and just as ridiculous to just presume that certain people will react in a certain way.

I think its ok to hate a person... I don't want to go biblical about it and look at the seven-deadly-sin-side of "hatred", but I'm of the opinion that hatred against a certain person should be purely based on the way he or she has behaved with you. not based on other people's experience or judgment of him or her. That's kinda unfair. Afterall, i won't behave to people I like in the same way as the people i dislike...?!

That's all i guess... This is something I can keep going on and on about but i don't feel like sitting here and typing it down. I'm wishing i could talk to someone instead, about his and get it all out of me. Or i had someone who could type it in here for me. 

I hate my laziness sometimes, it strikes at the wrong time.

Eva